I didn’t create Ashinine as an arena for speaking about relationship issues. I didn’t start it with the idea of spreading around countless literary quotations and excerpts. I certainly didn’t develop the site with an idea in mind of speaking about my daily hardships, struggles with depression, or my meetings with my therapist. Over time, it has become a collection of these things, yes. Instead, my perception of Ashinine is that of an avenue towards finding happiness for myself, for now, if not for others. In many ways this has already happened, though not in the ways I expected.
Already, I’ve had relative strangers, friends of friends, old acquaintances approach me to tell me they’ve been able to relate to something found within these few pages, whether an insight into my sadness or an attractive quote from Tolstoy. I say this by no means to laud myself, but rather to illustrate a point I’m often guilty of forgetting: there are people out there like me. I know it’s a point that comes across as a bit crass and self-important, but I think one of the biggest traps of my depression and social anxiety is my readiness to believe that I’m in this alone — I’m the only person who could possibly have this emotion, this thought, this experience, this situation. The thought that others may feel this way is nothing short of terrifying to me. In some of my better moments, those of starkest clarity, I remind myself of what is, to me, probably the most important lesson in life: we are all on the same track. I can’t stress this enough. We are all trying to be good people, we all want to love and to be loved, and we all want to go to bed with a smile on our face. Profound words from one who is (sadly) anonymous:
“The general love of humanity… a virtue hitherto quite nameless among us, and which we will venture to call ‘humanism,’ for the time has come to create a word for such a beautiful and necessary thing.”
I’ll take this opportunity to tell you something I wish more people would say. If you’re reading this right now, and especially if you’re not, know that I love you. I love you for who you are, for who you’re trying to be, and for who you’ve always been. We will all make it through this life and we will all be happy.
the asinine design ramblings of ashley. this is my little space for the sundry items and ideas that inspire me in my professional and personal lives, with a tinge of cat lady weirdness thrown in for good measure.
scattered polka dots · the number 31 · russian literature · smatterings of gold glitter · all things feline · the road less traveled · israeli couscous · early 20th century poetry · cheers · elie saab · party design · nail polish · faraway lands · weddings · eclecticism
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